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life

2009-11-17T23:11:00.003+08:00

i just feel like i need to let this out.
i just received a call.

Dear god.
Thanx for the answers to my prayers.
I noe u love her much much more than we do.
And to relieve her off those sufferings on earth.
May u forgive her and keep her in heavens.
And a chance to meet her in my afterlife.
Amin.

Yot.
im sorry we didnt meet when ure in the hosp and when ure still awake.
i noe then u would have hugg me and give me all those kisses like uve used too.
im really really sorry i didnt made it. :'(

tuesss

2009-11-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

today was one of those days that school has a ridiculously long break.
and its for 2hour+
decided to play CS..yeah!counter-strike man!!
haha...
its was really really fun cause its been a real long time.u
and i cant even remember the last time ive played it.
hah.
anyway...in,mamat,yan,aidil,nizam & me were those playing.
overall about it..was real funnn.

den at night was supposed to play takraw..
but sadly it rained..
sorry nad friends..thursday okay!
haha..

kay & no mood to post about other stuff.
selamat malam.

love and pity.please

2009-11-16T23:29:00.004+08:00

Dear god.
Ive prayed a million times for u to forgive my beloved Yot.
For all her wrong doings before.
Please take her back to u where she will be fine.
And free form all sufferings ure putting her thru now.
Amin.

my thought will always be with u Yot.

happyon13

2009-11-15T16:22:00.014+08:00

Hey babe.
Happy 5months love.
Anyway.there's nothing much i can say about this.
but i absolutely love our day at sentosa.
thx for everything.
including time when u ask me to celebrate ur mum
and adik's b'day together and all.

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u were reluctant to fetch me at first
but in the end. after my hard work u did fetch me.
so sweeet(: ..but nope.
haha...den we went in search for a nice cake.
when in the end we found one and then headed to ur place.
took some moment there and after we cut the cakes.
u asked me to tagg along to raffles.
was irritating actually but nevermind.
then this was my first time eating with ur whole family and all.
trust me..i really enjoy it..
was different for me and forget what ever bad there.

at sentosa was better.
bad start though to my day cause of my fucking probation!
grrr..
but u made me smile afterwards then.
went to swensens@PS for breakfast.haha..
became real fat there.
afterwards we headed to sentosa.
belive it or not people.was my first time riding the monorail.
haha.
luge and skyride was funn.
taking photos and everything too.
but the most memorable was just spending the whole day with u
(:
smile baby.

looking forward to next month anniversary.
hiak-hiak! :p
better be prepared!! haha
ly girl

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Nytz beautiful worldl:D

gotta change babe

2009-11-07T14:10:00.002+08:00

baby.the last thing i need from u is your attitude.
i'll wait and hope u change.
cause u dont noe how much each time it hurts.

Start new now

2009-11-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

Lets start new.

nothing is ever complete without u.
i just decide to write my first new post about u.

our time this far has been really rough.
but just hear me out whenever ure in doubt.
im gonna be ur boy all the way.
:)
love u only.

so happy but sad

2009-09-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

through days that we have seen us been together.
what i lack all this while creeps out.
my weakness, my vulnarability.
cause finally im feeling that im in love.
and its truly from my deep heart that i said.
but its this weakness of mine.
your differences in my wants always pull me back.
trailing u like a fool.
and i noe i should not be this way.
because im a god freaking guy.
but how i wish u knew.
really really knew what i want from you.
not much about love really.
but on how i want to be treated.
- like im on top of the world.
but sadly this is just not happenning for me.
dont worry cause ive made a promise.
a promise taht i will stay.
i just hope that i can hold on to it.
but the truth is.
im afraid too that u'll leave before me.
ouh well.
nytz world.
i wish u realize.

life.

2009-08-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

i dont noe y u kept doing this to me.
u made all this really really hard for me.
like as if there's something that wasnt enough from my part.
i just wanna go on with life
to wait again for someone who noes how to make me happy.
and to understand me.
byeee

hello!!

2009-08-08T16:35:00.000+08:00

sorry people cause its been really really long.
my lappy is getting fussier day by day.
and my bro gets home more frequently then ever.
sooo its hard and anyways.ive been quite occupied.

ouh..so my life basically was okay all these while.
pretty much ups and downs too..
still hanging on to her with some problems along the way..

im just back home from eating with my family at changi:) and then went to expo for awhile where my mum bought unnecessary stuff..haha..she bought a navigator and a vacuum cleaner....lame sia i noe..

for the people i miss : Zaaaaaaaa! u noe its long since uve met me..y?? haha...must meet me soon okay.(:
Diyanah..i just dont understand u..ive never even heard a single word from u..guess uve
forgotten about me totally..

k bye people...ill update soon..

malas

2009-07-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

hello...
sorry cause its been long...
being lazy..haha

anyway..
my love is going off soon:)
time to party!!! haha..
jk..

anyway..idk why but recently uve been really irritating!
aha..argh!!
hmm..
went karaoke yesterday..
ader budak ni paitao..*tknk bilang la sape kan..
upload pics soon:)

went to meet zaaa and friends awhile..
omg!! dorang nye lah irritating!!

kay and dats about it..
eh...6 more days la!!:D

out to ride(:

2009-07-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

hello people:)

its been a really really fun week..
went out with nad!!
haha..but guess what!!?
we went cycling.
haha..yeap!! u heard right! CYCLING!
nad siol!! haha..susah datang nyer..
hmm.lagi-lagi ni idea datang dari nad! huhu.
cutee kan kiter!?

soo..i went to fetch her from her place at 6.
then we went cycling to changi to east coast where we den ate some bbq chicken to fill up her big stomoach!haha.
our journey took about 2 hours sia!! haha..
then we went back using the east coast - bedok route..
kesian tau nad ni part..
tak habis-habis panting and i had to pull her..and she like sebab die pemalas!!
haha..tapi betul kesian ngok die muke penat..haha

okay so now nad badan dah swee siol..dah kurus:D

we took some pics..:)

2009-07-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps.
ive been really great these few days.
hmm..school's wonderfull..
and been spending lots of time with my super irritating nadzirah these few days.
:D huhu.

and im wondering where's dee.lupe org lagi...hais.

anyways.i wanna share this joke with u guys.
haha.maybe lame but just read.
soo.like most ites..each and everyday we have to take or daily temperature.
then we gotta do some question and he was saying about the 4th question.
"Have u been to a h1n1 affected country?"
he said that we should say yes and we guys go wondering.
sooo we asked why and he said...
"Arnt we in one? S'pore has 1000+ cases"
haha.....!! get it??!

this is specialy for you..
that the world miss u.
and the world loves u.

Watch this
cause its the most meaningful and
touching part for me

yay for today!

2009-07-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

hello people.

sooo today is the first day of school.
was a short day cause we ended at 12.
but it was okaylah cause i get to meet my friends.
rindu dok! haha.
ohh.and i tell u.both mamat and shahreen were super irritating sia just now.
satu tak stop-stop kacau.
lagi satu emo.hahaa...
"uh yelah.mane nak call aku lagi.msg tak layan cal tak angkat."
"aku klau masuk anugerah je org ngok muke aku dah tak suke"
"aku kan sape"
and tak stop-stop kacau mairah.mcm cb.haha
and dats shareen people.
haha.

den tadi after school lepak awhile at tmart with ite people and spend tym with nad:) after that.

hmm...
during my weekends was out with family and playing soccer.
but at the same time something happened.
but whateverla!
dont wanna talk about it..argh!!*buat bingit je
but after it we're okay now already.
i noe its weird but we're okay!!
but as long as she freaking DONT do WHATEVER she did again!!
harap-harap la okay fareyhin..

and people.
guess wad!!?
haha..starting today im gonna countdown to my b'day!
wakaka! nak kene semangat dok! tapi takleh sabar..
17 days more....lama per..

picture we too the other at downtown:)

for u

2009-07-04T01:30:00.001+08:00

its my song for you:(

Part of the List

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

:(

2009-07-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

okay.
i just cant go on without blogging.
i need to let go of everything here.
now that i have no one.
except for my beautiful friends.

ive been really down all day long since thrs.

i hope this will be my last post that im gonna ever write for u.
its been soo long since i was last being stucked up in the situation i was in.
about it.
i was freaking afraid that i might regret what i was going to say.
but i dont want my life to be this way.
remember.i was supposed to be the happiest guy on earth.
u never want to make things ryt.
and now its all over.
i seriously hope that u'll just go cause im afraid.
to start all over again with u.
im sorry really.

about the thing i wore..
this had nothing got to do with it.
but i realized how my friendship makes me a happy person.
and they were the real ones who were always there.

so now that ure gone.
i hope i'll move on soonn.
at least i have diyanah who loves me.
and zaaa who cares and treasures me alot.
including my other friends.

u take care and now u can enjoy ur life.
and when u find ur next guy.
treat him well and dont treat him the way u treated me.
just move on will u.?
cause it will be almost impossible now

2009-07-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

i ll be giving myself a week break from the world.

read soon people.

nytz!

back!

2009-07-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

its 2 now and im going to bed soon.
just got back from lepak-ing awhile at YD2.

guess what!
today i got my hair died black back again!
haha.yeah:)
just had to skip cs0 just now.
and a friend was kind enough to help me out.

anyways.
today nothing much really.
went out with zaaa awhile cause she wanted to do some shopping.
but in the end didnt cause there was nothing much really.
then went to play takraw and that was about it.

i really miss u and u'll be back tomorrow.
but idk lah.cause its hard.

nytz world!

wild sia!

2009-06-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

Morning earlings!

Yesterday went out with iqek to teman her do her hair.
and she looks like a nigger now.haha.but im not kidding!
but she's still cute with it.aha.

Today im supposed to be going for my CSO but!!
haha...
yesterday i went to dye my hair but it turned out wrongly..
argh!

look!

:(stress!

its sorrow

2009-06-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

you'll be going off tomorrow.
and im still not okay about everything.
about how u treat me and all.
i wish i could make u smile before u go.
but am i supposed to lie to myself?
how much longer?
yeah.u could give me all reasons that u could possibly come out with.
but its just u dont have to say a single word.
cause its useless.
about me; i prefer to be this way.
than me being such a jerk barking around.
i hope u enjoy urself and really..u dont have to bother thinking bout me.
have funn there!
okay bye!
*ps : i still love u though and i thought i miss u bad
**too bad this is what i get.

nytz to the world !
and im not love sick.just missing someone..

foods

2009-06-28T04:56:00.000+08:00

Its 5am and i still couldnt sleep.
not even a single yawn.
but im hungry!! haha.
i wanna cook burger for myself then i shall put myself to sleep.
:D
gemuk sia hyn!! aha.

anyway.
talking about food.
went to swensens for dinner with my family.
i was sooo hungry and i just have to satisfy myself.haha
so i ordered salmon baked rice AND fish and chips but changed the fillet to salmon
ohh...and marshmellow latte
AND banana split.
haha..kesian perut:)

anyway.
i saw this pic in dee's blog and it reminds me of my colourful hair i used to have.
but too bad i cant colour it anymore:(
not till next year though.
argh! lama lagi..
look.

cuteee kan aku..
hahahah!!

klah nytz people.

for my sweets

2009-06-28T04:13:00.000+08:00

hey people.

world, please noe..
zaaa was really sweet cuause she made a post for me and her.
haha.
she's really really sweet to me
and i love her alots.
happy 7months too baby :D
of our beautiful friendship.

ouh and there's one more person that is my sweets too.
and her name is diyanah:)
she's mostly there for me all the time too
this her and happy lasting friendship kays:D
9months and counting.

for you

2009-06-28T04:10:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to say really

nighty post

2009-06-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

time check : 3.30am

haish..
im trying my best to put myself to sleep but i just cant.
im listening to my mp3 ryt now.
idk why but im in the mood for jiwang songs.
then now there are many thoughts in me:(
haha..fool.
maybe dats why i cant sleep.
takpe..i decided to write a post now.

to my beautiful Nad.
i love u!
ahaxks!
even though ure really irritating and are always making me geramm.
especially when u will bite me macam budak kecik when i call u something that u are.
haha..main2 je :D
tapi btul per...
anyways.
i think i'll be missing u realll bad when u'll be going this monday.
even though its just a few days but still..
hmm..meet me on sunday kay dear..
and after u come back:D
cause i dont wanna suffer missing u later..aha..

and cakap thx eh kat ur dad for calling me whatever he called me just now otp kay..
haha..
kacau die baru tau..
tapi i baek sebab i hormat org tua jadi i taknak.

maybe besok i akan teman u klau jadi.
i je ader camera ader pukimak pinjam hilang kan diri..
kiwak..tak tau malu lah sial !
nanti aku carik kau!
haha

k bye peeps!
da ngantok..
love u nadzirah:)

eh sama2 kay countdown
23 july..!!
semua org save duit!
lagi sebulan dok!
haha

klah! bye!!!!!!

hi world

2009-06-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

Its cam-whore!
met dearest zaaa the other day at teeq's crib:)
look at both of their idiotic face.haha

anyway..this is especially for Nad.!
haha:D
i was really really impressed with Teeq when i was at her house the other day.
die nye rajin masyallah.!
haha.die masak untuk dad die nasi goreng seafood.
sedapp lah seyy* takmu kembang lah kay.
den i finished it all.
haha!
then teeq masak lagi.
ni tak pernah nampak.sardine goreng and with kicapp i think.
i think now i want a girl like her.
haha.. bye nad!!
main2 je lah.

still working.

2009-06-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

hmm....so yesterday had a minor quarrel but its okay now.
i skipped CSo today just to meet her.
went out with her just now to pasir ris park to chill out..
idk why but i swear she's damn irritating today.
then by 7 left to play takraw.

so now im seriously freaking tired.
gonna sleep anytime soon.
argh! CSO tomorrow!

i hope u'll be meeting me on friday cause after that u cant meet me for some time.
imy.

kay bye people.:D

to dee : i seriously have nothing to say.but remember how close we were last time.forget it.somehow it happened.

2009-06-23T11:59:00.000+08:00

nad.! i miss u!!! argh! haha..
call me soon..

cute

2009-06-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

okay sooo my weekend was pretty boring.
went to werk on sat then went out with mummy to makan in the evening.
and that's pretty much about it yesterday.

hmmm.sooo today went out early for football match in the morning at toa payoh.
went home and slept awhile then went out again with my mummy and cuzzins to makan.
then we went to hosp cuz my kakak sedare just gave birth.
haha..die citekan semua serammm sakk..
haha..and i was saying to nad tah time die cam ane..
die kate die strong..okay!! haha

i took pic of her daughter:D
awww..

to zaaa : zaaa...aku rindu kau lah! nak kene meet soon tau(: and sorry klau kite mcm jauh gitu..hmm...sayang kau tau!

anyway...I LOVE NAD ! aha...:D
tak tau knape..kekal eh lama2 kite..haha

pics

2009-06-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

me and nad:) ~ kallang

updated

2009-06-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

hey people..
its been real long..
finally.

my life is simply going perfect now.
and especially that now i've owned NAD :D
and she's really really sweet now
just love her:)

this past few weeks have been real buzy.
werking from day till night
haish..and trying my best to complete my CSO.
:(

i'll update from now on.
cheers people..

*(: 13.06.09

outz

2009-06-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

hey readers.
so time check is 1.45am and im here at parkway pool spot.
was from sheesha just now then went to sempang to eat with classmates.
then we headed here..

and u guys should try out this flavour..tastes freaking nice..
its watermelon ice mint.

kay and about yesterday.
idk why but i decided to agree and went out together with nad and her family.
first time sia adn what more that we hadnt meet one another since a week ago cuz we had a fight.
weird.
then dirah blanja mkn satay at downtown.afterwards went changi together..
i mean it was great and there i tried to talk things out with nad.
bey going home time dirah sukeeee sngt nak ngok bapok..semangat siolll rounding nye rounding..

then today nad came over to my place.
okay idk why..
but i love her still..argh!
haha

k bye people.
playing pool:)
nytz

happy b'day friend

2009-06-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

kay people.
im in class now just came back from playing soccer with classmates.
ANDD sabo-ing shahreen..haha.
dah 18 per..aku biler lah..

hmm..and i noe u wanna noe what happened.
haha..ahmad and arvin was pouring and pouring water on him.
then they pinned him down and i crept to shahreen's back.
hahaha!this is the funny part!
i cracked an egg onto shahreen's face but it went straight into his mouth.
and u should see his face sia!
he was saying."air ape sia tu?"*ngan muke-muke dier skali..padahal telur...
maybe u should see this!!! haha...
i'll upload the video asap..
hahahhahahahah!!

and he's beside me..
freaking smelly sia.!smell of egg.
cikgu sampai tak kasi duduk kat krusi sia! haha

k i'll update again.
byeee

it was smiling tuesday

2009-06-03T13:31:00.000+08:00

okay im here again in class.
only now can i post cause i still have not yet get a new charger for my lappy

sooo.yesterday not much happened really.
went to play takraw at night and even that i was late.overslept..haha
then after that i went to lepak at YD2..
ashyraf tagged along cause die baru pindah near my area.

okay..over there was reallllll funny..haha
like serious my friends were real retards..
cause firstly aidil wanted some ciggs.soo he asked from in
but this bastard asked him to do something-jackass.
haha..and it is to wear a helmet and go scare people off.
i think aidil took like 15 mins but still he dare not do it.
then hamdi stepped in for aidil but he had to do it twice so he did..
hhaha...one was a bus driver and the other was a singh..hahahahah!
we laughed non stop sia..
then later on acap also did the same but this time to a girl.
haha..she was soo shocked and u should see the face...haha

k and thats about it..

sharin kesian nak celebrate die nye b'dae bsk nye susah..
pujuk ny pejuk sey org untuk maen bola..haha..
besok aku wish kau kay..chick finder..haha

things to look forward to: drinking session tomorrow and class outing to futsal next friday:)

ouh and how could i forget..
thx iza for ur sweet msg yest..
i'll text u soon okays..

k bye people.
imy

quiz

2009-06-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

ni shahreen tagg suruh buat..
for funn:)

1)Besides lips,where is your favourite spot to get kissed?

-erm..am i supposed to be naughty or what?haha..can i?

2)How do you feel when u woke up this morning?

-incredibly tired and sleepy.and idk.missing someone

3)Who was the last person you took a picture with?

-if i'm not wrong..it should be budak kecik : diyanah

4)Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

-i dont think so.not yet..haha

5)Would you ever donate blood?

-im scared too actually:)

6)Have you ever had a bestie of the opposite sex?

-kiwak..lame.yeap

7)Do you want someone dead?

-lame again.next!

8)What does the last message says?

-from her:gdnytz! anyw, i just topup=)

9)What are you thinking right now?

-about nad and its personal

10)Do you want someone with you right now?

-mamat is already beside me.but i dont wannt him.perhaps diyanah..or sue?

11)What time did you went to bed last night?

-at 2plus i think

12)Where did u buy the t-shirt you-re wearing now?

-co-op?haha..cause i'm wearing uniform now..

13)Is someone in your mind?

-yeap

14)Who was the last person who texted you?

-nad..where are you diyanah?

15)10 people tagged to do this quiz.

1.zareeza

2.diyanah

3.mairah

4.sue

5.nadzirah

6.shahreen

7.hadi

8.mamat

9.isfarah

10.zoul

16)Who is 2 having relationship with?

-idk.but i hope she wont have any(: hehe

17)Is 3 male or female?

-depends..haha

18)If 7 & 10 gets together, would it be a good thing?

-and the world would be upside-down in laughter.haha..and im serious!

19)What is 1 studying about?

-something lame..biomedical science?

20)When is the last time you've chatted with 5?

-5 days ago?! cause we fight!!

21)Is 4 single?

-this one i hope so:)

22)Say something about 2.

-cute and freaking kind

23)What do you think about 3 & 6 ?

-jatoh boi!! confirm works! haha..kan kan kan?

24)Describe 9.

-amazingly beautiful friend:)miss her lots

25)What do you do if 6 & 7 fight?

-wont.trust me.

26)Do u like 8?

-wait! do u mean the red bag or the rough road?hahahaha!

k end

time out

2009-06-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

last week went karaoke with mamat and shahreen.
haha.was funn..(:
and anyway..it was the 1st time we hang out with our new classmates.
but kite bertiga je..haha!
ni shahreen uh tknk ajak chicks..
stepp malu..
okay btw..ni nak kembang kan die je lah..
suara die sedap seyy.
haha..
last-last part me and mamat karaoke lagu jinbara
ni kekek..nyanyi pey nyanyi pekik nye pekik..
mike pun putus..kiwakkk!!
haha..

and last week too spent lots of time with diyanah..
then budak kecik tu uh bored bey terpakse org nak kene go all the way there at 12am there to teman die..then went home at 4.
then the following day fetch her from her place and ajak die kluar makan to sempang with my family.sebukk je..haha.
k tu jee..
byeee.

why?

2009-06-02T09:05:00.000+08:00

sorry people cause there's some irritating problem with my charger and it just wont work.
wanted to buy a new one but its damn x!..argh!!

baby.i'm sorry
i'm really sorry that all of it had to turn out this way.
but its not what i wanted and its just a decision that i noe is the best for us.
we both lead different way in lives..way wayy different for us to work out.
but u really left me undecided.ure unpredictable.
hmm..i thought u said u love me?
but am i just someone who u would like to play around with?
call me when u need me and reject me when ure occupied.
cuz thats just the way that i feel it is.
and baby,leaving never was an option for me.but ure a winner.
to make me believe u that ure in love with me and making me such a fool.
where am i supposed to go from here?
when u left all the spaces in my heart filled with ur lies?
i just hope that u'll forget me and let time work and slowly we'll slowly move on.
i dont even noe whether i should regret our time but ive done my part.
i give u my love and showered u with my most sincere heart but i guess i should just be thankful.
thankful for those fake times.for u being a heartbreaker at last.yeah blame me?
nad.1 year!
1 year of all these love that uve occupied me with, and i'll have to walk alone from now on.

and when everything seems to be always a sad time.
u were there and i really appreaciate and cherish u.
uve been really sweet to me diyanah and i hope u wont go too.
yeah..we may be friends but i love u.
just dont take it differently.
bye and msg me soon.

spoil

2009-05-26T09:26:00.000+08:00

sorry people cause apparently there's something wrong with my lappy.
will update soon.
byee:)
happy birthday nad

mine

2009-05-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

Last friday was out to meet Nad..
made me wait for 45mins..fuck..haha
then we went to TM with her friends and i did some shopping too..
was great spending time with her.
tapi die cam cb..haha.

then today woke up at 5.30am just cause i had some futsal tournament at cck stadium.
ok lah..funn and worth it
met a couple of my friends there.satu-satu muke dah takleh dikenal lagi..haha
then my leg get swollen real bad..but nvm..bearing the pain.
GOSH!! i still have a game tomorrow at 1:(

till then.
and nad is becoming funn now.
tak cam dulu..kental..

here's a pic of me and iqek we took the other day:)
sorry..kental sak muke!

out

2009-05-15T10:11:00.000+08:00

Sooo.this is the pics we took the other day.

me and love..

haha..that was her sis.this is her..ugly i noe..haha
sorry dear:D

my zaaaa and me:)

and these was those people who went..that's teeq btw(yang extra)hee.

anyway people.will do a proper update soon enough..sorry been buzy lately:)

weekends

2009-05-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

sat went out with nad, kakak die, zaa and teeq..
went to far east and thats about it..
ends bad..

will upload pic as soon as teeq uploads them:)

u love urself more than u do love me.if space all u ever wanted.tell me.
but i guess that's what u really want.and i'm serious

soon

2009-05-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

Baru nak tulis post..
tapi takder mood!!

i'll update at the end of the week.

i still love u

sorry about my perangai.
its just that i really expect that much from u
love me more each day kay.
and tell me everything.
goodnight nad.
my kiss is here.
muacks!:*

weekends!

2009-05-04T11:21:00.000+08:00

kay hello people!
my weekend was great btw..

friday was out to visit my uncle at TTSH cause he had an op.
but it was sucky.the virus thing.only 2 people were allowed to visit at a time then the rest had to wait at the lobby till they come back then it would be the 2 person's turn.wtf !

that night then i followed aidil and friends for riding to seletar dam again.
after that we went to fernvale cause someone wanted to see a race.
damn BORING!! and lame sia!
waste time.
then went home

Both sat and sunday went to Eastpoint to watch anugerah.funn.
thought of joining at last minute but tak jadi.hehe
On sat went with Is.ouh i miss her !
then bleh terserempak ngan Nad.
*dah lah gaduh ngan die the day before.
tapi takper.dah berbaek bey die cam baek giler lak
aku rindu kau!!!!

then after that went to jemputan kakak kambeng with is,an,hadi,fathi,alip and uzir
sing song there but fathi kekek gilerr!
haha.tak nyanyi tau..literaly pekik sia.
then headed to tamp1..
at night we watched movie together.
miss u guys.really.
then went home.
Sun went again with Nad and her friends.
thats about it.

bye people
.fullstop.

sleeping beauty

2009-05-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

SLEEP! SLEEP! :)

today ive been sleeping the whole day!!
i didnt have enough rest this week.
ive been sleeping even in class and now..
tym check : 2.30am
and have been sleeping since 4 in the afternoon just now.

going out now to lepak with aidil
by people.

maira.when ure okay please give me a call.pls

i just found this pic and its when i went marina barage the other day. and An managed to capture her pic cause i asked him to. lawa kan!! haha

nad

2009-04-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

to u nad :
just give me time kay.
i really dont wanna get hurt anymore.
just noe that i still love u.
and my perangai.
i think i'm still the same.
u dont have to worry about me.
u tcaire
msg me soon or call me

drunk!

2009-04-29T16:31:00.001+08:00

Sooo yesterday went to chalet again.
was quite boring cause not many people was around.
then aidil and i decided to drink.
was a reluctant one.
but anyway i went to tale a bottle of vodka into the room.
it was only me and aidil cause hamdi didnt wanna drink
even though aidil psycho nye psycho sia!!haha
then half way thru the bottle Pacai joined us.
here's the real funn when he came in with bacardi, malibu and something else.idk
he was mixing it and some taste good.
then after few cups we decided to stop.
by that time i think i was already halfway there.
but i wanted to keep those drinks back but hamdi insists on me not doing so.
so he helped along.
HELP KE BYE BYE!!
he said that the bottle of malibu was left with abit.
so he asked if i wanna finish it and i said okay.
but when he poured it was half a normal cup sia.
cause he poured it into my sirap.
then after i drank it.i didnt expect myself to get drunk sia.!
but i was..
but thx hamdi cause he was taking care of me.
haha.

then went to school just now. woke up at chalet and i was finee already.
so i decided to go and aidil sent me.
but my hangover was terrible sia.
so i was at school for a lesson then went home already.
went home with aidil and in they slept at my place awhile and here i am.

i'm sorry maira
but i really hope u understand me.
i promise this wont go on often
and i really dont want u to change.
i appreciate ur concern friend.

i wish it wasnt meant to be this way

2009-04-28T06:15:00.000+08:00

i'm sad cause u're constantly on my mind.
i tried to not think of u but i just cant.
n i cant help it.
i really love u but i guess i'm too bad for u.
getting us together will only make it tougher.
for u and me.
if not u who would crumble my heart, then its me.
and it would lead us to nowhere.
n i've decided to leave it on fate if we're gonna be together.
wasnt u the one who said that there's no use to be kind to me?
and do u really think u love me.truly.deeply?
and u already have friends that can make u happy.
i'm of no use and i rather let myself go.
and its not becuz of another person.
its just me.my decision.
let fate decide our destiny.
i'm sorry.
better take care of urself well

i wish i was a better man for u

:'(

not me.

2009-04-28T06:03:00.000+08:00

time check : 0600

i just reached home from chalet.
aidil asked me to tag along together with in and hamdi.
sooo.at around 11+ we headed off to chalet.

aidil kat sane punye lah bastard.suruh kite join minum.
so for the very FIRST time in my life i drink!!!
anyway i was really down so it wasnt really aidil's fault.
and idk the name of the 1st drink that i drank.haha..
but it was damn bitter that i need alot of mixer and aidil dah.."drag ajeeee!"..haha
dier senget sikit pun perangai cam babs sia..:)
then we played a game and the losser had to drink.
i think i had to drink like around 10 cups?:(panassss!
naseb tak senget sangat.
not as bad as in and aidil nak kene minum 1 cawan besar!
haha

then main ps3 jap ngan semua then we gambled.
and i lost 3bucks!damn it..
in ngan aidil dah kalah 10bucks gitu..haha
lagi teruk!!

then in antar balik.
seram siak sebab die senget sikit.haha

k bye people.
sorry for my jakon-ness
paham-paham kay...1st time.

now this is me

2009-04-27T19:08:00.000+08:00

expressionless

SAD:(

late night:)

2009-04-26T04:18:00.000+08:00

Oh hi people!
i'm really lucky i'm still here right now to post this blog.
tough time and i'm thankful

today is a boringgg day!
was home alone day long.
mummy went overseas and i had no plans.
was on the bed the whole day sia!
haha.

then at 1 just now went riding to Seletar dam with aidil , in and their friends.
something happened otw back...
ade ROAD BLOCK sia !!!
we were ushered to a corner and we all get down from the bike and the freaking beruks asked for our ICs.
i was half freaking out and i said that i didnt bring my ic while hiding my particulars in my pocket.
so the police asked to give them a moment and they totally forgotten about me.
and when the head police asked whether all of us had given our ICs.one of the policeman said ya.
gosh.!
alhamdulliah:)

so i'm here now safe at home:)
tomorrow ader game and maira will be tagging along.

and to nad.
you can say that i'm at fault and i dont understand you or whatever!
but you said tak gune nak baek-baek ngan i and make sure you mean soo.
and you dont ever have to contact me or find me anymore.
i had enough of your reasons and alasan
and its not the 1st nor the 2nd or 3rd time
i'm not worth of being yours!!
byee

time check : 0440

my summary

2009-04-25T04:58:00.000+08:00

so its been awhile since i last post a blog.
haha.bz and lazy:)

anyway.
these past few weeks have been great.
things between me and Nad is getting better.
i finally get to chat and webby with Iza.
talked otp after sooo long with Diyanah and Wani.
btw.Wani wasss so sweet cuz she brought for me obat to school cuz i was sick:)
awww.haha
met with Zareeza.
and that's about it.

so today i skipped CSO again! and went to meet Nad ands friends.
then went home and at night went out again.
went riding with aidil, hamdi and in on in's new bike!
haha.
so we went changi ngok bapok then went punggol then back to pasir ris and gamble:)
hehe
so i reached home at 4.30am.
tired tired!

btw.i miss u
and the msg hurts me alot in case u didnt noe.
we shouldnt be noeing each other i guess in the 1st place
:(

i'm sick!sick sick sick

2009-04-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

hey people.
so just now was the start of the 2nd week of school
and i'm sick now.soo sickk.since yesterday:(

soo today was pretty borringg day.
especially waiting for u! heard that!!
haha
u were sweet.thx for cooking for me today:)
and i noe u noe who u are.

then zazaaa came over cuz she had to do her homework.
and anyway i noe she missed me alot that why she came over..
awww.soo sweet and i'm touched.haha
nolah.actually i also miss u too.ALOT!!
:)

at around too we left home and head to Ehub to play bowl with all the normal people.
and btw people.i swear i suck just now.
waste my money!fuck.haha
and zazaaa tagged along too just now.

ouh.and i called nad up just now since idk when
i wanted to webby with her.
but she was like too bz i think.

yesterday was funn toooo!
mairah teman me to my soccer game at tangling.
and safuan brought someone there along too.
we won! haha and i scored a goal.
okay whatever!
then headed home but before that we went to eat at Coffee Express
and she LOVEEE the tomyam.
haha.

that's about it.
bye people!

suddenly i thought i miss u sue

deep regrets

2009-04-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

i'm going off for soccer soon.
i turned to realize that.
all these days when i'm always out.
why were u not the one i see.
and its been more than a week.
and i miss u badly.

weekends:)

2009-04-19T05:37:00.000+08:00

its 6am now and i just came home from pasir ris park.
went riding with iman, fiq, yan, syaf and myself and then decided to hang around there.
and i tell u its damn fun cuz we were merepek-ings ; singing songs that we made on our own and talking and doing craps.haha

AND arsenal lost sia!!!
fucking wenger got his tactics all wrong man.argh!

YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND WHEN YOU GO DOWN WHEN YOU GO DOWN DOWN:D
anyways.i really had a greatt weekend so far:)
friday was a hit cuz its the 1st tym i went out with my classmate and a goooood friend of mine, mairah.
we went to her chalet which i tell u is borrrring but she could'nt make it anymore funnier.
that friday was a good friday:)
i'll remember it through all.basketball court:)hehe
then today went to cut my hair and mairah accompanied me
and that was the end of it!

had a game comming up tomorrow.

gonna sleep now.
see u soon buddy:D

i hate this part right here
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i knew u had plans with ur family.
and i thought u promised me that u'll get out early.
i thought so and i was looking forward for today.
but i dont think u remembered what u've promised.
and even so u still wanna make it late.
i just didnt wanna tell u how sad it made me feel.
four hours maybe long and sufficient for you.
but surely it isnt for me and since its been long since we last met.
maybe i was right all this time except that i'm stubborn.
u didnt even bothered to message me the whole day.
except when u saw me online when u did.
its enough being only friends cuz hope hurts.
just so u know that me and u.
we're just ordinary friends who thought were in love.
but it wasnt the reality and they just got it wrong.

friendly people

2009-04-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

its not that you're always at fault.
but its just that i always expect more from you.
much much more than how other girls treat me.
its not that i don't love or care about you anymore.
i really don't want myself to be at the loosing end.
and always end up being frustrated and hurt.
i'm complicated but i wish you could treat me well.
i don't think we would ever make it someday.
you know that me and you are two different people.
i really don't know how to make things right.

Here how it went for me today.
as normal.3rd day for school and its sooo damn boring.
never ending speech about school and our future from all teachers.
getting real tired of it i swear.

anyway.i was queuing up for food just now when i thought i saw isfarah.
WTF!
haha and it seemed soo weird walking with her around in school cuz she was pretty just now with home clothes.and cam malu and taknak orang thing otherwise about me which happened.
she was there to support her bf rapp.haha
then annisah messaged! cause she saw me with is.
jealous eh?! hahaha..
semalam orang message tak tau reply.nampak orang ngan pompan lain tau lak die nak message.
haha.main-main jek.
soo anyway went to smoke with her awhile.:D

and i've made new friends with this classmate of mine.
*in any case that you're reading my blog.dont get me wrong.
soo her name is Umairah and she's damn loud.
haha.
but she's okay and friendly and suprisingly different?

die baek ke stepp baek tak tau lah tapi die baek giler tadi.
dah lah kasi rokok.kasi main pool.kasi air.kasi pinjam hp.
awww..haha
went to smoke then played pool with her and with her friend.
ohh shitt.i forget his name.
then balik rumah.
haha.she called me i think something candy.
i noe.tak perlu bilang.haha
tapi orang pey suke uh:)

so that was the end of my day.

nytz people!

sleep oh sleep

2009-04-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

ive been a sleeping beauty today.
went to sleep at 5am yesterday causing me not to be able to be awake for school.
and i was awake at 5.30pm sia!!
haha.wth! never before.
then shortly after i ate and FELL ASLEEP AGAIN.
haha and was awake just in time for american idol.

mummy was really mad at me today idk why maybe cause i didnt went to school.
and now am chatting and webcamming with NAD.

bye people.
today boring post.
haha.

arsenal game starting soon in 3 hours.
staying up.
:)

tuesday

2009-04-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

heyya people:)
haha.been real funn today.
started school at 8 and it was boring till then.
school ended wayy way earlier at 3 and i had nothing to do since Annisah end at 4.
so slack at school till i terserempak with Mas then she ajak to play pool.
haha.lucky thing that during my holidays i played alot with my abg sedare.
won like more than 5 times straight just now.

by the time it was already 4.30 and haha.i saw 3 missed call and 2 message from Annisah.
LATE!!
soo me and Mas rushed to meet her.*tak tau lak dorang kawan.
then went home with her.
it was funn:)but she's damn irritating asik kacau orang je!
org kacau die marah,cubit!..haha

then went home but before that main bola jap*ader blister:'(
then lepak with bob and friends too awhile.

played takraw at night and that's about it.
appreciate today alot!:)
lovess.

eh!fareyhin join singing club!!!!!
haha.WTH! kentalll.:)

nytz people.out soon to watch soocer:)
semangat.
arsenal wins:D

nad : i dont noe.i think i noe u long enough to feel as though u have changed.IDK.
im trying my best not to care and think of u so much cuz i dont wanna feel hurt or feel that
im missing u.u dont understand me and i dont think u ever will.u noe whats the problem
with u that u never ever realize it before.u always put yourself before others and i hate that
attitude.u never think of me really.

1st day of school:)

2009-04-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

was really a slacker today.
met lots of people and today real nye cuci mata.haha.jkjk
i got a new class but we had to split up:(
and i noe class wouldnt be the same anymore.
however.the bonus is that my class has the best timetable:)
real slacker and lucky there are quite alot of my good mates in the same class as i'm in.
and btw.i got the course i wanted!:)

after school terserempak with Annisah yang sombong dan dah lama tak dengar khabar while heading back to in's void deck to lepak.haha.hope tomorrow she'll balik with me and tak paitao me.:)
then we played some gambling and guess what??!
haha.i earn 2bucks.haha
i noe lame but at least something then nothing.
ouh.i saw Fana at the forum but avoided her cuz we quarreled the day before
and i saw Aini too..dier makin lawa per?!hmmm.

afterwards in the evening met mum cuz she wanted to follow me and buy my bag.and i've got it:D!
its RED in colour and its real simple but niceeee:)
i tried to persuade her to buy me the NB limited edition shoe 1st cuz i'll pay back but she say not now.WTH! and she said that if i behave she would get it for me first this weekend.see how it goes.left with 30bucks.left 70 to gooooo!:(

here it is

balik then met iman, fiq, syaf and mamat at Ehub to play bowling which was worth it cuz i won all games:)haha
fiq says :"uh kau nye turn.lempar bola eh bukan roll"
*haha

then went home naik kereta!

k byeee people!
miss nad but idk if she realize it.

for you :D

2009-04-13T01:48:00.000+08:00

Soooo.this is the 1st time that i'm writing a whole post meant for someone.
seee.this mean how special and important u are to me.haha
awww..fareyhin is sooo sweet.
and i'm posting this at 2am sia!
semangat.
:)

u noe wad diyanah.this month marks our 6 months of our friendship together.
i swear i appreciate u alot as my friend.
u were always there for me and u are super duper cuteee.haha
your voice,the way u talk and everything.
especially when u sneeze.haha
and i'll take note of all the nights that we would talk on the phone till late in the morning and by that time i'll be talking noncence already.haha
u are funn and real cool to me and there's something u dont noe cuz i never tell me before.
i'm really looking forward to meet u cuz then we could take pictures and i could have a pic that i could look at and that is a picture of me with my goodfriend:)

i dont wish to loose u and i really hope that our friendship will last till whenever and wherever it would bring us to.u could lean on me whenever u neeed me and u could hold my hands tight whenever that u are afraid that u will fall and i'll always be by ur side.
haha.sweet talked mother fcuker sia Fareyhin.
haha!

u..look at this.

♥ Friday, November 21, 2008

This post is especially for my friend, HYN.

Don't be too sad okae, cheer up.

Hope nothing happens to you, because you can't leave me.

I need you to call me everynight, to keep me company [:

I'll pray for you okae, no worries bout that.

So don't think about this situation too much, just hope for the best.

And whatever happens take it with a strong heart, [:

Don't give up, no matter what.

Know that i will always be free to talk to you.

Eventhough we only recently knew each other.

Takecare Hyn.

IF YOU'RE READING THIS, SEE HOW NICE I AM. HAA, [:

Lotsa love, your friend.

DIYANAAHHH!

:)haha...i dont noe that uve ever posted for me before since just now when i saw it.haha

Klah diyanah.that's about it
fareyhin loves u alot.
and he cherish a great friend like u

sorry for that pic.i though it was the coolest pic uve ever had.haha

all this time

2009-04-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

i was OUT on friday!
had HAFIQ's birthday celebration at pasir ris park.
cool thing u noe cuz its been long since we had a bbq together.
soo.i was really excited that i decided to buy some toys for my 7 year old cuzzy.
my mum then decided to share the cost with me(:
i called up Nad and asked her if she would like to follow me.i noe she missed me alot that she decided to follow me.and on my way there i made up my mind to buy for my little cuzzy a ben10 toy or figurine.
Ouh.i tell u.it was so fucking pack there sia!and what more with the heavy rain.
went to ToysRUs.then decided to get for him a ben10 watch that can come out light of the characters.it was cool.love it.

then after that Gadoh lagi ngan Nad.then i went home with Zaaaa making matter much much 'better' by her perangai.haha.takpelah.i understand.
headed off to pit on bike cuz i dont wanna reach home late later that night.
OMG.when its time to open up presents.i wore for him the watch.and his face goes like..OOOOOUHHH!!!! I LIKEEEE! haha.if u get what i mean.try imagine it..he is damn cute lah.haha
and my nenek and aunt shared to buy him a bike and he was like racing off everywhere with it.haha.he's cute i swear!

my aunt told me he said words that goes exactly like this : Ma.Boringgg lah skolah ma.abis ni blajar abis ni blajar.Borringggg tau ma!..
haha.cuteee kan?! ish ish ish

SATURDAY
went for my cuzzin's nikah and eat ALOTTT.mum was real mad that i met my dad.and she was being unreasonable and merepek for that.was really noisy lah!argh..
then she took me and my aunt and cuzzin to Kallang Stadium as there was Moulud Nabi.
it was from 6-11.
i swear i had CRAMPS sitting!
ouh my god.
the starting part je gerek.
for the 1st time.ive attended a religious event that was as such:
.we had to do Kallang wave and it was really humourous cuz we were all in baju melayu and makcik2 semua ngan tudung.but they were really funny and sporting.haha.u should be there.its soo strange the feeling that it gave me goosebumps sia!!haha
.there were VIPs and they were all the ex-singapore football heroes and habibs and ulamaks.and when the ex-footballer baca a surah.we goooo clapping.wth!strange.my cuzzy was like.salahh bawak uh ni.haha..sorry!main2 jek.haha
.and there were songs sang by this guy from indon and i dont noe who but his voice is niceee.haha..and so were the songs.
.ouh! and i almost forgot.they had this pengacara that voice was the same as Adi Rahman.haha.SAMA giler except that he noes how to read some surah
then after that it was boring all the way that me and my cuzin decided to go jalan-jalan at Leisure Park.
then balik gadoh with my mum again that she merajuk then went out and never came home

SUNDAY which is today.haha
borrriiing! mum went home at 4pm.
by the time berbual dah cam biase like nothing happened.
was too late to buy my school stuff so she promised me that we will be getting them tomorrow ater my school ends.
went to play takraw with budak pondok tadi which was boriiing then went home.

i dont understand Nad these few days.
what's wrong with you? and you've changed.trust me

SMILES!

2009-04-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

sooooo.whats up??!
haha.
i'm doing fine here i think.

yesterday it was the 1st time since i dont know when that i massaged sue.
ouh.it was okay and she didnt reply in the end after eating her ice-cream.
well then.i guess she must be upset.REALL upset that L'pool lost! tald ya! haha:D
sorry

hmm.today early in the morning i had to be awake already by my abg sedare.asked me to play pool with him.haha.i lost AGAIN! making my total loss of 12bucks sia!
ouh wth!

then went to karaoke at Simpang but something happened in between.
haha.
me and my abg sedare spotted this girl from BSSS at the bus stop and she's preety attractive.
but i didnt thought of anything initially but my abg sedare dared me to ask for her number.
soo he semagatly u-turned and drop me off at the bus stop.
did my thing.haha.joking.i talked to her and after some time asked for her number and she gave!
haha:)
i got 10bucks for accepting and passing the challenge.haha.yeay!

i shall upload our duet with me and fifi karaoke-ing soon.
if possible and rajin:)

stay happy people:)

its pushing me.

2009-04-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

it has really been sucky these few days.
i just dont get you.
Ouh i know.u dont have to say anything else.
u dont understand anything about me too.
and dont worry fareyhin cuz these things happens and dats why i'm tired of trying my best.
cuz i dont think she ever appreciate whatever that i'm trying to do.
i'm giving it a breeeeaaak!

lucky thing i had my abang sedare who always would wanna cheer me up and mesti adeer je tau die nak bawak gi maner-maner.haha.and the result of it.lost 8 bucks to betting with him.Fcuk!
takpe-takpe.i'm gonna earn it back!
haha.
AND i cant wait to go karaoke with you guys tomorrow:)

ps:i had this thing in mind and that is could we ever make it?

Sundayyy

2009-04-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

for bitches :
People usually do get stucked up to their extraordinary believes.
high level of unsensible ego that wouldnt bring them to anywhere.
but lead them to a path of disgrace and utter shame that reflects back.
but they didnt notice anything till now and forever no matter what.
because they guessed that their actions are right as we were at fault.
fucking dumb.
and what's wrong with the world?

my day starts~went for soccer soo semangatly to Turf city.had a soocer match and it couldnt be more exciting with the cold and perfect weather.once i reach!haha.BOOM!! suddenly the rain fell as heavy as it poosibly could and there goes the game.spoil sia.dah lah jauh!!argh!

so headed back after lepaking at the nearby coffeeshop awhile.then followed my family and cuzzins for dinner at East Coast.wooohoo! we ordered Stingrays, squids, clamps, some other seafood stuff(like lots and lots of them), satays and bbq chicken.GOSH! by the end of it. i swear i was fucking full.
then we headed to marine cove and played bowling at the sucky place.i couldnt remember the last time we ever went out together with this much of us.soooo much fun:)

i'm smilling in my sleep:D

oh boy!

2009-04-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

i'm super duper down.
my PMS uh i think.but then again.couldnt be.
i dont know what's really bothering me.
GOSH! this feeling sucks.

anyways.
today i was out like the whole day.
early in the morning i was in a bad mood already.
my whole family didnt wake me up and i was lateeee for my appointment with my PO.
i really didnt wanna be late cuz i had already done a mistake.in fact twice!
woke up and rushh down.
biase kene marah and all but the best part was that she gave me verbal warning.
haha.thx:)
after that headed to Orchard to meet ustaz Youseff..haha..cooool name huh?its You-seff and not yusoff or something..he was supposed to treat me and my friend for lunch at swensens but nasib die baik.haha.swensens at Orchard was closed already.so we headed to Lucky Plaza insteead and ate Indonesian nasi padang..okaylah.not bad

then semangatly went home to bathe just to meet Nad.and for that paitao my friends.i'm truly am sorry but she's more important.hehe.so met her and her friends then headed off BACK to town.went window shopping.AND i seriously fall in love with this pair of Limited Edition NB red shoe.And this Eastpak Red backpak.gosh! need money! anyone wants to treat me?! haha

then my day was ruined!

it is truly amazing about everything.
when desperate times it was really hard.
now it seems that thing comes in cheap.
i'm left with one that i really love and cherish.
so i'm casting away every other possibilities.
and that includes my true wants.
but it doesnt really matter to me now.
reality exist but my virtual is my real-life dream.
where it can i'll seize every happiness.
and it will last till where it can bring me.
to anywhere possible.
with me always breathing by her neck.
loving her by every second.
and with else existing in the unreal world of mine.
still present and living.
i'm devided.

Gosh! Boriiing

2009-04-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Call it the worst week of my life.
i practically did nothing but had been slacking at home only.
and sitting in front of my lappy everyday.
i'm stoned.there's a real need to chill out !

so today.
i was webcamming with my love
haha.look at her face!

i Looooove the particular picture that's on the bottom right!haha..
Niiiccee
haha..LOVE YOU WEIRDO! :D

there's more..
this particular picture i caught was scary.
look carefully.there's a GHOOOOST behind her

u guys see it?
haha

and this is what i call maknenek
i know u would kill me if i upload it
BUT..i love u :)
hehe
so here it is

*SMILES:))
i know u swear u hate me for this
:)

anyway.
it was the first time since whatever happened
i nudged Sue.
talked like as if nothing ever happened
ok whatever.
after that same goes to een sonic.
bla bla bla.
just give it time to heal everything.

in the evening.
afterr soooo freaking long
i played takraw with budak2 pondok.
then went home.
so that's for the day

nights people!

Just anoher day

2009-04-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

Boring Wednesday !!

Was home alone the whole day cuz mummy went to melawat.
Pratically did nothing but sing, watch tv, chat, eat and otp.
yesss i noe..boringg
but my cuzzy came awhile.

Then meet dier lagi! haha..i'm getting sick and tired of u lah Nad.haha
muaxks!:)
we took pictures.
sorry if its blur but so what.

Went home then at around 12 lepak with aidil, in, and all awhile.
Thanx to the introduction of the ****ing police..i had to run off

sooo..here i am.
Goodnight everyone!

Ouh..i almsot forgot.today Diyanah was sooo sweet.
she sent me a text message.
and i think that this is the 1st time she send this kind of stuff.
here's it.
*
Friends are like balloons.
Once u let them go, u can't get them back.
So i'm gonna tie u to my heart so i'll never loose u.
U noe i love u!
(:

*
aww.u touched my heart dearest:)

K BYEEE!

Out Out

2009-04-01T09:11:00.000+08:00

i could only post my blog now.
awaken by my mum freaking early in the morning
my aunt had just passed away:(
but i really cant get out of bed so she went off first.
felt bad
and i'm not going for CSO.sorry love
cuz mummy's gonna come and fetch me later.

yesterday was too tiring.
couldnt stand opening my eyes for any longer so i decided to sleep after talking for awhile

sooooo.once again yesterday was awaken by my sedares who came over
then at around 12pm they decieded to catch a movie so i decided to tagg along.
anyway it was on them:)haha
but before that we played pool and bowling.
gosh!but they kept loosing their bets on me so in the end i benefited like 5 extra bucks
haha.mata merah!:))
the movie was okaylah.not soo fun

then abang sedare sent me to meet Wani.
yeah:)after sooo long.
it was funn though disturbing her
but she had to be home by 6.30
cuz dier anak mak..haha

okay then i went to play takraw but met Nad for a moment
awwww..she was sweet.she came down to meet me a the takraw place.
then sent her home

~end of the day~

diyanah: sorry that i didnt had the time to call u back.will do soon

Good Monday

2009-03-30T23:36:00.001+08:00

woke up early but decided not to go for my CSO..haha..dah naik sedapp siol..
Mummy tinggal kan 60bucks:)
love u!

This is for diyanah.she FORCED me to post about her.so this was buat kerane terpakse :)

haha...

sweety her said that i'm loved by her..awwww..

and she said i look cuteee in specs.

thx i know:)

anyway.i kinda miss talking to her now.she better get her prepaid top-up soon sia!

and make sure she reserves that much of her value for me ONLY!

okay..dats about it.HAPPY NOW?..haha..main-main je u not yet LEGAL diyanah:)

and i upload this pic for u:)

preety cute huh...haha...mind my tak tau malu-ness
:D

anyway..i followed NadSAYANG to grandlink for a karaoke session with her friends in the afternoon.
we were there for about 3 hours.then went to makan then went back home.
stupid probation don't wanna get caught again..pfft!
wanted to paly soccer later but nilah NadSAYANG nye pasal i decided not to go.
OUH FAREYHIN LOVES YOU!

k now i'm going to bed

iza:we'll go webby soon okay.hyn miss iza banyak-banyak!:(

its mixed!!

2009-03-29T01:04:00.000+08:00

woke up.
went to masjid sultan.
my day arrived!!haha
but then we went to makan at zam zam restaurant(power!) first.we ate TWO $8 murtabak and TWO prata telur each and ONE ayam sambal each.ouh.and TWO cans of drink each!!
pigggg!
haha..MCYS blanja perrr..

then we did some rehearsal by 10am till 3pm when the event starts.believe it or not.at the last minute.they asked me to sing solo for a verse.just so you guys know that i've never sung to the public on stage before.so it was hard for me but i decided to sing in the end.
it was funny in the end.1st of all.we were all so nervousss that it bacame cocked-up.scripts forgotten, trembling and all.HUMOUROUS!

then.after i've sang.haha.i swear i saw my mum cried.haha.WTF! coooooool:)
then went home and met my Nad

.seraaaaam! OH GOD! i swear i was racing back home.i was freaking pissed off and sooo spechless to see my probation officer in the lift.OMG! this is the freaking 2nd tym sia..STRESS!!!!i then let a 5 page message to my PO..hope she give me a chance.haish.fikiran sial!
i thought also of trying to ask her put me on tagging instead as punishment.at least i'll have 'guidiance' with it.IDK

nad: u didnt help me at all.i really need u just now.i was really upset and stressed out.once again.u were'nt there

sue: i really dont know why u became so cold to me.like as if ive made a mistake to u.i told u that i've forgotten all about it and i've forgiven u.i cant change u though but this, its not worthwhile at all.think 18.

funnn:)

2009-03-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

continue from previous post.
its 2am and i'm turning in soon.
wonderful day today:)

soo.i went to catch a movie with beloved Nad just now at Ehub!
we went to watch Comming Soon which was in the end not so great but but the show was okaylah.quite scary though

then Nad went over for the first time to my house because i'm hungry.PIG sia
after that then went to Tmart to follow Nad meet her friends
then she sent me back home**but until the bus stop je

at around 12pm.Zaa called me up and ajak lepak cuz she had to wait to meet her friend
i had probation, cant come down sooo she came over to my place
*dont u start thinking of anything..haha
just lepaking, ate coco crunch and took some pics using my webcam
so here is the nicest of them all
~

my acting is tomorrow!!
haha
seraaaam!

this is life i guess

2009-03-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

i chatted with sue.
i didnt wanna make her feel that way
i'm sorry:(
u remember when we used to be happy? :(

And this song means a lot to me now.
Eamon - Fuck it

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

[chorus:]
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

[verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Thursday!

2009-03-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

OUH.freaking sleepy now but decided to post anyway.
am eating now.
while watch tv.
and messaging

today was BORIIIIING!.
i didnt went for my CSO but instead stayed at home.idk why but i decided to meet sue awhile just now before i went to Al-Falah.
meeting her was okaylah.its for awhile only but she managed to make me smile.
was that hug fake?? i really dont know.
But that thing she did to hide the rokok was totally.WOOSH! never expected that and no one did that in front of me before.Coooool! (:
pls.dont do it again(:
i'm afraid i'll be WILD then.

afterwards went to Al-Falah and yeah.OMG! i'm gonna have to act in front of my mum this sat! ohhh..serammm nyer!
i'm a dad!(in the skid) haha

zareeza taknk jumpe so i went home
she SOMBONG!haha

okey.now i can sleep.
webcam-whoring awhile just now

Bad day ohh bad day !

2009-03-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday could very well be one of the nominees for the most memorable yet saddest day of my life.it was such a painful 24th of march.u know what?-it just made me stronger.

i cant believe it that i was like the dumbest guy.i really didn't ever imagine myself being such a fool.i fell for her words and i thought that he was a freaking good friend.yes! I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS BEING A GOOD FRIEND - A FRIEND SINCE PRIMARY SCHOOL.
fucker.

maybe god was being soo kind to me that i'm not too late to find out about their hidden contact between each other.i'm freaking dissapointed and sad but i've already made my mind up.and i'm just gonna forget everything that was going to happen between me and her.
and consider yourself lucky that it happened to be that u were my friend.
okay! FORGET IT FAREYHIN !!

today : i did my CSO from 10am till 10pm!!.haha.freaking 10 hours sia.i was actually supposed to meet up with sue today to catch a movie but then i decided not to.instead i ask my CSO officer if i could extend my hours and i accompanied those elderlies to watch football match at Jalan Besar Stadium.it was real fun and humourous.alot of things happened there

: and finally met up with my love, Nad.it was normal, just hang out under the void deck and then i went home.but before she slept just now.she gave me a real sweet massage.okay! i swear she made a good end to my day

and now i'm talking to SUE..i really dont noe wad to talk about.to follow or not to follow my ego?

k BYEEE!

monday.boring

2009-03-24T04:03:00.001+08:00

this is my 3rd time i think i'm creating a new blog.
just felt like writing a post.
couldnt sleep and its 4am.

i had to meet my dearest Nad just now after a long time since something happened(or rather something that i had said to her).for the first time she's being soo kind.she bought me a shirt that was quite nice.really appreciate that.
then we decided to hang around awhile under my block to talk when she recieved a phone call.SADNESS! her good friend whom i knew had just passed away and i was pretty speechless.it was really out of a sudden and it somehow woke me up a little about me,my life and my temporary stay in this world.
haish..it was really a sad moment.i told her to get home and go visit her freind's family

to sue : i'm really into you these past few days but i realized somehow that i'm really a nobody compare to who you are.i just leave everything to fate.but i really appreciate you.ALOT

to iza : you're freaking sweet to me.i love u alot

finally.to wrap up my day.i left home at about 12 to play soccer at tamp which was once again being interupted by freaking "Beruks".then hang around with my friends awhile at 7eleven and then headed home

Gosh!
i'm too tired for tomorrow's CSO.
FISH!!!